I have the day off from work today. Gabriel is sick, however, so it's not a happy go lucky day. I took him to the doctor and it turns out he has bronchitis. So, our family sickness saga continues. Who will be sick next week???
Last week I got a letter from my doctor's office. A fasting blood test showed high blood sugar levels. Friday I had to go and do a postprandial blood check. Basically they measured my fasting blood sugar, sent me out to have a hearty, starchy breakfast, and two hours later they measured my blood sugar again. The fasting blood sugar was within the range, but on the high side, and the postprandial level was definitely high. So they sent me to the lab again to do a hemoglobin A1C test. And I have a follow up appointment on Friday, when they will tell me what the official diagnosis is and what is the recommended treatment. In the meantime, the nurse asked me to try to limit my intake of refined carbohydrates.
This is a wake-up call for me, the one I had been dreading but seemed destined to get before I finally gave in and started taking better care of myself. And it is a very recent occurrence. My last blood test before this was in November (for a life insurance screening) and everything came back normal. During the holidays I gained 10 lbs and I am convinced that is what threw my body chemistry out of whack and put me over the edge.
I was very upset on Friday. I have known for a while that if I did not shape up, someday I would be facing this. But it is not real until it actually happens. All I could think of was my father and how he died of diabetes. So naturally I have been concerned.
Since Friday I have been very attuned to my symptoms. I have also made a promise to myself to be more mindful of what I eat, so I can make better choices. I have started an online food journal on Fit Day (best of all, it is free). I am reading a couple of cookbooks that I have had for while, which feature healthy recipes (those that preach moderation, not deprivation). I bought a book called Stop Prediabetes Now to see what can I learn about this.
In the end, I know the reason I am going through this is because I am overweight. And I am overweight because I do not eat right and I hardly exercise. I very much want to get back to a healthier weight and lifestyle. I am just very scared I will not follow through with it.