Friday, July 06, 2007

Where is my community?

I am a displaced person. There are days when I feel this very strongly. On such days, I miss my island so much it hurts. I sometimes idealize life in Puerto Rico, and forget that I willingly got the hell out of there the first chance I got. I forget that even when I was living there I felt like an outsider at times, as I am sure most people do, no matter who they are or where they come from. It seems that many people suffer from the same misfit complex as I.

I have things in common with several groups, but I don't quite fit in any. And that makes me a little sad. I am always afraid I am going to alienate my mommy board friends if I speak my mind too freely. And I exchange comments and read the blogs of some pretty cool and interesting people, but am careful not to get too friendly because what if they think I'm some kind of needy weirdo?

There are days when I wish I could find that magic group of people who are just like me, who will welcome me with open arms regardless (or because of) my likes and dislikes, my ideals, my beliefs (or lack thereof). The problem is I don't know who those people are or where they are hiding, if they'll deem me worthy of joining their community or if they even exist as a community at all. Where are you, pseudo-intellectual, slightly political but too lazy to get involved people? Where are you cynical, superstitious atheists (or is it agnostics?) who like to read about pop culture?

10 comments:

  1. You just described 90% of the internet!

    And dont even think of coming back to this floating turd called Puerto Rico, it sucks.

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  2. For the first time, I agree with Mr. DS.

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  3. Your in my community and I want you to speak your mind - because often I'd back you up :)

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  4. I feel the same way most of the time.
    I always have friends from different "groups" but am not a part of any of them exclusively. Make sense? Anyway, I feel ya!

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  5. Count me in too! I know just how you feel. *hugs* and I'd love to hear more of what you have to say! =)

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  6. You know you aren't gonna alienate me!
    So sorry you feel out of place...

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  7. Hey DS, thanks for checking out my blog. I checked out yours and I like the bilingual thing you got going.

    I don't know why I sometimes worry about fitting in. If most people feel like they don't quite fit, then who the hell does actually fit?

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  8. HI I am a student from Puerto Rico, for the past 5 minutes I have been searching you, because I read Sin Título #1(great story, I knew it was going to end that way) and the teacher gave us as homework to bring personal details about the author I hope you are the author I am looking for otherwise, this comment is terribly useless

    ps about Where is my community?I also have felt out of group sometimes, but i do love Puerto Rico!!!!

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  9. Hola. Yes, I did write that story, back when I was at the UPR Río Piedras. Where do you go to school?

    Yo amo a mi isla un montón, and I miss it a lot!

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  10. Hola, que bueno que mi comentario, te hizo sentir bien,leí Sin Título#1 en ''Idioma y Fantasía'' my actual Spanish Text book. Estudio en Arecibo, Se que amas a Puerto Rico! yo tambien amo a mi isla desde niña, cant say the same about DS, me da lástima que todavía existan personas que son de PR que piensen que PR ''is a floating turd ''nunca había visto un comentario tan desdeñoso de mi patria, de un chispo de isla salen un montón de cosas maravillosas a pesar del daño político que reciba! I needed to say something about his comment with all due respect I dont mean to cause any harm on your blog! De hecho me gustó mucho su blog. que largo mi comentario!

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