Friday, August 15, 2008

The Great Automatic Procrastinator

That's me. Put off, put off, put off things until the water is up to my neck.

I have been stressed the last few days. I am in a learning curve at work right now, and I am always nervous when I am thrown out of my comfort zone. When I am not quite sure how to do something, I just put it off, hoping it will either magically get it done or it disappears. That is never the case, so I always end up in a rush to the finish.

With the stress comes a breakdown in my mood. I have been doing so well. I have been so even keeled it has surprised even me. I was crediting my life changes for that. Now it's obvious my life has not changed that much. A lack of stress was driving the improved mood. Now the pressure is on again, and I am starting to crack.

I don't like the implications of this line of thinking.

3 comments:

  1. stress will be here with us, all the time to different degrees. The reason you were 'feeling better' is because of the way you were HANDLING the stress.

    you were utilizing exercise as an outlet..and now with your back out, you have no where to release the steam.

    Yanno?

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  2. Oh, I think I beat you for the prize of 'World's Greatest Procrastinator.' I am always getting myself in a state by putting things off. Meleah is right, putting your back out hasn't helped. Don't worry, all will be well soon.

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