Tuesday, September 22, 2009

New day

It's a better morning so far. I woke up to copious rain. We needed it. The last few days had been a bit too hot for this time of the year.

My mood is improved too. I am feeling calmer. I'm not out of the woods yet, but I did not have a surge of anger when I was called a liar by my daughter after reminding her that last night I had asked her to wash her hair in the morning.

It's hard parenting a passive-aggressive, argumentative preteen...

Monday, September 21, 2009

A chronicle of self-loathing

Maybe that's what I need to turn this blog into. I probably would post more often, since I have a lot to say in that area.

It's hard, though. While I do not have many readers, this is not an anonymous blog. Old friends, people I work with could easily find it if they wanted to. Perhaps it's better to keep the lid closed on Pandora's box.


What do I do with all this anger inside me?

It has been said to me that depression is anger turned inward. I am not so sure about that.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Saturday morning

It's been a while since I focus on my blog. The last posts have been published on autopilot, just so I would not feel guilty about completely abandoning the thing.

I have an aversion to pontificating, so I avoid commenting on political or current events. I have not been taking much pictures lately. And there's only so much exploration of feelings and moods one person can do. Thus, the quiet.


My Saturday morning blog writing was just interrupted by Spanish-speaking people brandishing a special booklet from Watch Tower (Por qué usted puede confiar en la Biblia) and intent on recruiting me. Though polite, I was a bit short with them, and they got the message and left promptly.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

This (hormonal) life

This week has flown by quickly. It has been a busy time at work. It has also been weird in terms of my mood. I am anxious, irascible and short on patience. Also, I am not sure when will I start to see the effects of Metformin on my blood sugar levels. So far I have been taking it with dinner, and the only thing that has happened is that my stomach is upset the following morning. Maybe it's the new monitor, but when I measure my glucose levels, they do not look particularly good. Two days ago my fasting blood sugar was 131.